My Driveway Tells of Change

I’m different somehow. But I don’t look different. I feel things differently. But I don’t feel differently, not really.

Change has happened but it has happened at a rate that allowed me to accept what was occurring without fear. Gradual it was over many years but as I gazed out the window today I noticed my driveway. There was still a lot of snow and ice covering a lot of places on the pavement. And I wasn’t becoming apoplectic about it. This caused me to begin a short self-reflection of where I am now.

You see, ten years ago I would have been out there with a sturdy shovel scraping and chopping the frozen enemy from my asphalt. None would remain. I had to have the cleanest parking spots of anyone along my street. After all, it was the rule to be as thorough as Humanly possible. That’s what I was conditioned to believe. Then I wondered – by whom? Is being so utterly anal the actual essence of being a proper Human or was there another option?

Where we have evolved to today displays every indicator of how our World is been ever changing even though there are those who would have you believe otherwise. There were supposed to be various boxes and depending on whom you wanted to be, you would choose one of those boxes, climb in and stay there. This way you would fit in with a group you wished to be like and the rest of your life would be happily ever after. Or not.

This is where it oftentimes begins not to make sense. You made your choice and settled into you chosen box. Your life continued onward. But as you peered out of your protective box you observed others who appeared not to be constrained by any structure. This of course began a lifelong relationship with Judgement. Often that judgement leads to disease, caused by the added stresses from the behavior that doesn’t match your own – and it’s judged to be wrong. After all, it doesn’t match the rules of the box you chose so long ago and it’s just not right…

I too fell for the box choosing paradigm. There were behaviors of others that just weren’t correct, they didn’t comply with the behavior manual that came along with the box. We all got one, that manual that accompanied our box written on a stone tablet never to be changed – ever. Then change happened.

It was slow at first to allow for beliefs to be examined, cognized and understood. That’s when, for me, I had discovered that many, many of my beliefs weren’t even my own but had been placed there by others all vying for my allegiance to their beliefs in order to give credibility to their System. This allowed them to feel good about themselves, that they were right and anyone who didn’t believe their System was wrong – totally wrong. That was the dilemma I faced.

When I began questioning beliefs I had carried for decades and began discovering that many of them were flawed, many extremely flawed, I began digging deeper into a belief system I thought I could trust. And there lies the crux of the systems available. All of them are right. That is, they are right for those who subscribe to a particular belief system. And of course everyone else is wrong and sometimes so wrong they must be killed because their system doesn’t match your system and therefore must be destroyed.

When I began discovering the insanity of the paradigms we were literally ordered to believe, it made it easier to identify beliefs that no longer served in my best interest any longer. The tables have turned, as they have always been turning but instead they have turned to a place they have never turned before. This angers many people who still cling to belief systems instituted two thousand and even three thousand years ago. Consider this, do you still use a rotary dial telephone or an old Royal typewriter when you need to send a message? Are you still enjoying your favorite television shows in glorious black and white? Do you follow the rules when traveling cross country on the train like a good believer? Of course not. This begs the question, “Why are we still following belief systems instilled during times when we still used magneto crank telephones, horse drawn buggies and messages by telegraph?” Or even further in the past…

I had discovered too many ‘systems’ I had bought into were outdated, some even on the day I bought into them. This lead to a decade or more of searching for truth to what is - and what isn’t. This caused fearful people to judge and ridicule my actions, words and beliefs – or lack of beliefs. As was stated before, I discovered that as Humans coming into this lifetime we arrived with absolutely no beliefs what-so-ever. We arrived with only Feelings. We felt hungry, we felt cold, we felt loved. Only feelings, nothing more. Then gradually over time as we observed the World around us we discovered life was easier if we fit in with those around us and began buying into their behaviors and beliefs just as they had done before me.

But it’s well time for us, as Humans, to begin acknowledging that we were unknowingly duped. Many people actually know they were duped but are suppressing that knowing and instead are displaying anger and hatred toward those who have openly awakened from the system of suppression Humanity has been under for centuries. They are following their Feelings as they discard their beliefs. This could be a difficult idea for some but with some heroic digging they too can find the understanding in this concept.

So, my driveway is a mess. And you know what? It truly doesn’t matter anymore…